12 posts tagged “rant”

What keeps you up at night?

this month, work stress has been keeping me up at night. ive been working with a particular business unit in my company to get some content ready for their section of the site. i set deadlines, resources and a time line. they aimed at the 24th. not sure why, but thats what they wanted. anyway, they missed all their deadlines, they dont deliver the content i need to post and im basically holding their hands through their own project. its a real pain in the ass.

i gave them a deadline of this morning or else the 24th wont be reached. after they hand over the content, they call me up saying they want more changes to be done. the content is on rev9 now. how many times do you really need to write up a few pages of text? soooo disorganized. theres about nine writers in this project. the point of contact has changed around through 10 different people now. its stressing me out because i know my team will get yelled at if this doesnt work out. i dont understand how its our bad when these kids arent doing their hw, but thats how the breaks are out here. annoying as shit.

Ughh. What do you do when one of your coworkers constantly let their emotions run wild at work?

I've got this person that has no fucking tact. She's always bitching about something, someone, everyone. Hey, the great thing is, she doesn't discriminate right? She HATES everyone equally. No matter how cool you are with her, no matter how "close" you are, she will shoot bullets at you like a fuckin terrorist.

You should see the emails she pushes out. The tone in her writing is always demeaning and "holier than thou." One day, I'll be on her good side, the next, I'll be on her hit list. Bipolar is the best way to describe it.

I bet if she reads this she'll get all butthurt and try to defend her attitude at work. I had another coworker that tried to talk to her as a friend since she asked for advice. What does she do? She pulls rank and says "You can't talk to your boss like that!" Why the fuck did she ask for advice and criticism? If you can't take the heat, I don't gotta type the rest. BTW, she ain't my boss in case you're wondering.

Fuckin attitude problem. Hey, its good to be proactive, its good to be on top of things and get shit done. It's not good to be aggressive, its not good to be pushy, its not good to be a douche. They can be good traits, but have some fucking tact please.

The bitch damn near yells at me through email because I ask a question. COME THE FUCK ON IM JUST THE FUCKIN MESSENGER.

I can go all day bitching about her. This is the first time I'm documenting it. I guess the steam is blowing off the lid now.

Hey World.

Sorry about my previous post. Rants are rants, and when I get pissed, shit is bad. Thanks for letting me type it tho. I feel alot better getting this off.

So, its time to rant. I talk hella shit in this, so if you dont have a strong heart, I suggest you skip it.

Time for some backstory...

I have 15 cousins on my mom's side of the family. This is the family I grew up with. Being the only child, I depended on my cousins as forms of siblings. We hardly hang out as it is, but one thing we do every year is secret santa. Our parents think we don't deserve gifts anymore since many of us are well into our 20's. So we all took it upon ourselves to give each other Christmas gifts.

This year, instead of the usual top five, it was decided to make profiles of ourselves in order give a more meaningful gift to each other. The assignment was to create a profile about ourselves to give our secret santa a better picture of who we are and what we like. I was actually excited to do this because it was a chance to show my interests other than "computers."

So, before I go on, I need to explain to you about my status in the family. For some strange reason, I am placed on this pedestal among my cousins that I am a successful executive genius who is to be the next bill gates. I'm sure that from all my blog posts, you know I'm far from it. I don't have the inventive genius that successful business folks have. At this point in my career, I take the orders and execute them. Thats it. Still, I have this reputation that Bill Gates' blood runs through my veins.

The shit I talk about, the words I use - for some reason, no matter what I do or say it's foreign to them and just too complex for them to understand. Simple things like, "Have you heard of the new Blackberry Bold? You can surf the internet on it and look at webpages fullscreen!" or "This phone is also an MP3 player." I get nothing but wierd looks and wtf faces. I really don't think shit like that is anywhere near genius. ITS FUCKING COMMON KNOWLEDGE.

So hopefully, that can kinda give u an idea...

I write my profile. I talk about my career, what I'm focused on, my interests, where I work, what I love doing. And I also answer the required questionaire. My tone of writing in this profile is a little rough. A tone of an elite ethug dances through my paragraphs saying things like "if you dont know what it is, google it." Or "welcome to the internet." Simple jabs that I find comical when I read through my usual daily forums.

At the end, I finish it off saying, "No, I will not fix your computer for christmas." Somehow, it has been established that since I work on websites, I'm an IT desktop support expert. Computers are computers I guess.

Keep in mind, these immediate cousins I grew up with, we grew up in the same neighborhoods. As they got older, their parents got more money and they moved to the nicer, newer neighborhoods. We all went to similar schools, despite our financial sitatuations. Straight up tho, I grew up in a somewhat sketchy neighborhood. These fuckers grew up in the burbs. I made best with what I got while they all had all the cool toys, clothes, popularity, and cars. While they all had new cars off the lot when they got a license, I drove a ten year old DX - I still drive the same car btw. My point is, I got shit while they got gold. I make best with what I had, these fuckers whined and complained when they didn't get what they wanted.

So anyways, back to the profile stuff. I submit it to everyone and... FUCK what a trainwreck. My cousin fires back an email mocking everything I wrote about myself. I talk about how proud I am to finish school, and actually enjoy what I do for a living. Takin an excerpt from his email, "but thanks for that very interesting read. it really made me feel great to be related to a computer online marketing website making individual like yourself. not all of us knows (or gives a fuck) what  a google chat is and but you showed me!  lol"

Thanks asshole. Here I am trying to be real, and he shoves it in my face. I could see two of my other cousins rolling their eyes as they read my profile like "wtf is he talking about?" It's easy to play dumb rite? Looks cool not knowing shit and staying in the dark about everything amrite? So I ask them straight up what they think of me. I'm told that I'm arrogant and that I'm a "holier than thou" genius. What these fucktards don't get is that using a computer doesn't equal genius. And talking about make up and dumbass gossip doesn't interest me like it used to. Pick up a newspaper you fucks. Be aware of the world around you. Seriously, I don't get it. One of them tries to ease the tension by saying, "its ok. next time, just keep in mind who you're talking to. Not all of us have a great mind like yours." If she was trying to be nice, wtf would it sound like if she was trying to be mean?

FUCK. No matter what I do, I'm always gonna get this bullshit. This is the very reason why I stopped hanging out with them in the first place. Dumb fucks always getting on my case and telling me shit they approve of and dont. Prying into my life, sending shittexts to girls I talk to, prank calling my chicks and shit. Then hating on my latest girl and acting like high school drama clique shit. GROW UP. I don't know why one of them hates my girlfriend so much. Whenever I bring my gf around, she gives my girl this strange fake ass high pitched hi and immediately looks at me to pretty much say "see i said hi to her, happy?" No, I'm not. YOU'RE the reason why I never bring her around. This is the same girl who asks where shes at. Like she fucking cares. And whatever I say to call it out, or point out, itll always be my girlfriend's fault. This cousin gave me shit for not wanting to live with her, then convinced herself my gf was the reason why I didn't move in. Please, I call my own shots, and just cuz I kept it real that day, you gotta find a place to blame it on other than urself.

This isn't all of my cousins btw, its just some of the ones I immediately grew up with. When I changed my major, got serious and focused on my career, they started giving me a hard time when I stopped hanging out. This was also around the same time I started dating my gf. I guess thats why my cousin(s) hates my girl. The scapegoat that made me disappear? Please. I grew up, deal with it.

The email reply talked about how I've got a glorified career that makes bills disappear, and how smart I am to be a college graduate. This fucker just graduated out of culinary school. Whats the difference? Graduating is graduating, welcome to life. He tells me about how he has bills to pay and time is money. Like I dont. He lives with his mother, I live on my own. If anything, I SHOULD COMPLAIN ABOUT BILLS. Fuckin asshole, go drink a bottle of soy sauce.

So the day after, I get all these apologies and shit. Kissing ass trying to talk about shit I like. Yea right. Cmon, I know whats up already, aint no reason to cover that shit up you fucks.

So this is the rant at its best. I got a bunch of "siblings" that act like dicks and are jealous of nothing. One is a chef, the other, a nurse, and another one is a fucking manager that makes more money than me. But how is it that I, blogswell, am more successful than any of these fuckheads. If anything, they're at higher levels than I am. I just know when to act when I need to. These fucks need to ask their parents before they do anything. Cmon. How the fuck can u survive in this world if u cant make decisions on ur own?

I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but its these same asshats that I'm also closest to in my family. I guess thats why it hits the hardest. What kinda family support is that shit anyway? I put myself wide open in that email and this was the shit I get back? These fucks got brothers and sisters to lean on. I gotta rough it out on my own. And I do. I paved my own career path(and some advice from a couple friends). The manager that makes more bank than me copied my major when she couldn't find her own. The nurse followed her mom. The chef, well.. im not sure what led him to that actually(but i am happy he finally stuck with something). I drove my own line in online marketing cuz thats what I like/want. I think I deserve a little credit man. I work hard for mine, I'm independent, and I take care of myself. I don't live off my girlfriend's tip, I don't live with my parents, and I don't live at my parent's rental house for free. I fuckin do this shit on my own you asshats. Doesn't take a genius to be responsible and make good decisions. Eat a bowl of shit and recognize.

rant done. noproofreading.

PS. So if you fucks ever read this, "its all love right? its just taking a big wieght off my shoulders, we're family, we're blood, we can work this out" rite? Bitches spitting lines at me all day. Making excuses about how I'm wrong for doing what I do. And when I get pissed about being labeled IT tech support, I get the cold sholder. WTF U THINK? I get a room full of vague, stupid ass computer problems that can probably be solved if you stop looking at porn or logging into myspace. "My shits broke, my shit dont work, what should I buy? Where do I buy this? I don't get it, whats a Bamzu?" Pour a glass of orange juice on your laptops and shut the fuck up.

Bottom line is, you fucks cant deal with reality, you cant take it when I become real so you bring it back like I'm the prick. Get over yourselves. I just play the bigger man and let it off since I know you fucks would whine and cry about it till u got your way. Good luck raising children.

now the rant is done.

i love my apartment. i think its great. great parking, great location, the neighbors are cool(one of them caught on to my 'fuck-off' aura) and i love being on the upper floor.

what i dont like about this place is that behind the apt, there is a certain family that is annoying as fuck. theyre a young new family that just recently had a baby. yes, babies are cute and ladies coo all you want, but when u start waking up to one all night you will understand me when i say fuck that shit.

it is almost 1am hear and i hear the baby yelling and crying as if its vomiting from a night of bad drinking. i look over to see no lights on, so i guess the parents are ignoring it like they normally do. you see, my bedroom faces the backyards of the neighborhood on the other side of the fence. while i am glad its not another apt, or im not facing my apt courtyard, i do hate being behind this house.

in addition to the screaming infant that plagues our small poor apt all night, we have to deal with their two fucking dogs that announce they are in the backyard each time they are let out. clockwork. everyday at 9am those fucking assholes let their dogs out and they bark the shit out of the sky. i stand at my window yelling SHUT THE FUCK UP as loud as i can with my deep low hoarse just woke up voice. i bet i sound like a cranky old man. TRAIN YOUR FUCKING DOGS BITCHES. some mornings, ill wake up to the sound of the wife and her pathetic attempt to train a dog. she sighs and gives up and goes back in the house. the dogs bark long enough for me to lose my ability to fall back asleep. also, since they bark, the other two dogs in the neighborhood bark also. its a herald of trumpets that ruin my mornings.

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i havent heard the baby in the last ten minutes. success! maybe the angst im typing in this entry has finally shit that shit up.

anyways, i hope this rant was entertaining.

Bowser

Ok, so the last post might not have made sense. It makes sense to me now.

Apparently, after reading this person's request over and over, she wanted me to give her a link that links directions from one hotel to our hq. Some kinda meeting will happen at the conference hall at the hotel and they want directions provided from there to our campus.

I don't understand why this person cant be clear on it. I mean, working in legal, you'd think communication wouldn't be a problem. And jesus christ. WTF kinda request was that anyway? This girl doesn't know how to use mapquest/googlemaps/yahoomaps/etc?

I am constantly amazed at how many people we have here in the Valley that are terrible at grasping the concept of using the Internet - let alone, their computer. These are people who use computers everyday, but panic when their mouse cursors disappear. How do these people keep their jobs? How do they survive out here? How did they even manage to get jobs at these tech companies?

Thank god I don't work in tech support anymore. ughh.

HAY FUCKHEADS! HOW BOUT WAIT TILL WE GET OUT OF THE FUCKING ELEVATOR BEFORE YOU ALL TRY GOING IN EH?!?!?

FUCKHEADS.

I get asked this garbage at least 20 times a week.

"When are you going to get married?"

WTF Marriage? I'm not even engaged.

Ok, I'm done with college. Ok, I've been with my girl for awhile. That doesn't mean I need to get married ok?

Everywhere I go, I get asked this stupid question like its the cool thing to do. Then when I look around me, who the fuck is married? I barely know anyone in my immediate circle thats married, let alone engaged. I'll maybe two couples I know out of all my circles fit this category. Even then, I barely hang out with those couples as it is.

Of course, that is the next step once we finish college rite? What about careers? What about work? Jesus. Especially out here in the Bay Area, you'd think careers would be the stronger focus of our lives. I guess some people just don't see it that way.

Most of the time, its chicks that ask me this shit. One time, I was talking to a coworker complaining about it. I knew she wasn't listening to me rant because she interrupted me and asked me "So when are you getting married?" (-_- ) thanks for paying attention, ass.

I'm not getting married anytime soon.

And no I'm not having kids till after 30. Why would I wanna take care of a kid while I'm still a kid. "Use it while you still can" - fuck that. I got plenty of time before my factory stops working. Jesus. When someone told me that shit, I was like.. "Ok? we're pretty young buddy." Thats like telling me to take up smoking cigarettes just because my lungs are still healthy enough to endure it.

In my quest for being a yuppie, I've been moving around alot this past year. I've got three jobs in the past year.

I've also moved quite a few times in terms of apartments. I left the southbay and now have to come back. I hate the commute - its not as bad as I make it out to be, but its really draining on the day. Losing the 2 - 2.5 hours of the day to commuting feels like 3 hours. So anywhere between 5 and 7.30 i feel like my evening has been eaten up and all i wanna do is go home and rest.

I've been aggressively looking for an apartment these past few weeks. It's been rough. Prices have shot up 200-300 bucks/month. This apt I used to stay at was 1250/month for a 2/br 2bath. Now for a 1br at the same place costs 1500! WTFMATE?

I'm really pissed at all these fucktards who fell into that interest-only-bullshit and thinking the value of their homes was gonna jump so high they could refinance and keep the same rate. And all those fuckers who convinced these sheep that the housing market was only gonna get higher and higher. Seriously, who'd wanna by a 2000 sq foot house at 5 million dollars? Now all these dumbfucks who fell into the trap are getting foreclosed faster than the black plague. Thank you geniuses for flooding the rental market because you couldn't look far ahead enough at affording anything beyond your interest-only rate.

Now I gotta deal with the fall-out. $1000 used to get decent apts in decent places. Now what I'm seeing far less than great. These places have OOOLLLLLDDDDD kitchen amenities, out of date plumbing, and square footage smaller than Stimpy's brain.

Even at 12 - 13 hundred, I used to see w/d's in the units and dishwashers too. Not anymore. The size is right, but the modern shit isn't there. I'm seeing stoves from the 1960's, vintage that 70's show kitchens, and this wierd smell. I went to go check out some places yesterday ranging from 1100 - 1250. I couldn't believe how dated the places were. "Appliances" in the kitchen meant sink and fridge. The fridge was older than sin, the sinks might as well been bathroom sinks, and that was it. Am I really asking for too much here? No Oven? No dishwasher? Garbage Disposal please? Microwave??? Stove FAN? GET OUT PLEASE.

Some places are "upgraded" but they consider "upgraded" refinishing countertops and bleaching the bathtubs. RING THE ALARMS FUCKERS the Landlords cleaned the bathtubs!!1 Talk about utilizing the deposits amirite? Please. Upgrades means new things were bought and installed.

So this is why I'm having a rough few weeks coming up. Its a pain to do this, and I've been doing this every year for the past 6 or 7 years. It's fun to look back at all the places I've lived, but the process of moving to these places sucks. I want to get a condo already.

My dream place would be here http://www.thewalnutfactory.com/. So fuckin expensive tho. Can u believe one of these units was converted to a 3 br place? Without knowing anything about the place, you probably can. This condo is a loft unit. Lofts are bascially oversized studios. This one has a living area, a kitchen, a bathroom, a little laundry area, and an open upstairs loft area. The lofted portion is meant for the bedroom. I did a walk through over a couple places a year ago. The size of the loft area is great for one person, and if two people share the area, its cozy too. I saw these pics of someone who build the area into two rooms. Somehow installed a wall in it. What puzzles me is.. WHERE IS THE THIRD ROOM? if its in the downstairs portion of this, either the living room was converted into a room, or the laundry area was converted to a room. This can only tell me, no privacy, no living space and ... damn what a waste of a loft! I dunno, i guess i shouldnt complain if people are living there.

There are downsides to a loft also. Lots of wasted space. The ceilings are high and theres usually enough area to have it be a two story townhome. It's perfect for a couple, or a single person. I cannot suggest these for roomates, or little families no privacy at all.

If I could, I would. People say with the same amount of money, I could buy a house. What for? I don't have a family? How about I enjoy this stuff before I get one.

So now, lets see what pics of lofts I can dig up for you...

Loft 2

Loft 1

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so this was supposed to be part of the last post, but i ranted so much i made it another post... this rant might get a little emoish... oh well...

yeesh. my girl is hella annoyed at one of her officers who isnt doing his job. amazing. 3 event coordinators, everyone of them is as difficult as all hell. the first one never showed up to anything. he was such a deadbeat it made me mad for her. the second one was too lazy to do anything and she complained about every aspect of doing the job she was eagerly applying for the semester before. and this new one, well. what a special guy he is.

he doesnt understand what advertising is. doesnt understand what creating a buzz is. and just like his predecessors, he doesnt understand how to write a simple email and ask for professionals to come out as guest speakers.

the point of this "event coordinator" position is to fix up the club with a guest speaker for the meetings. thats it. the actual meeting itself kinda takes off from there. you buy some soda, write up a little agenda for the hour, the speaker speaks for 40-50 minutes in that hour, and you're done. the students grovel, brown-nose, and beg for internship positions at that point. its amusing really.

it sucks tho, my girl has been carrying the weight of this org for over a year. when i was in it, we had 12 officers doing the work, now she barely has half. most of the ones i was with graduated with me, and the rest moved on to other things. it frustrates me that these marketing students dont wanna get involved further than their academics. sure, they have work, we all work in college. no shit. alot of these students just join the club to have it on their resume. it sucks. and since the new promotions team never really promote, its even harder to get a turnout for the club. i really wish the professors get involved also. everyones just too busy i guess.

but then when i think about it... what else can this marketing club give to its students? thats the hardest part. besides guest speakers and interns, what can this club give to its students? what will make the students actually wanna come out? i used to talk about networking and meeting all sorts of people, but thats like a students biggest fear, especially at this school. no one wants to be put on the spot, introduce themselves to new people- and its always because of a lack of confidence, unfair prejudgment and judgement on the person's demeanor or looks.

a perfect example happened the other week while i was at different club meeting....

"the students here are so fake. i had a couple classes with that one person, we worked together in a couple projects, and now she sits on the other side and never talks to me."
"what about that girl? she was in your group too, why dont you talk to her?"
"her? eww shes wierd. she waved at me in the hallway but i acted like i didnt see"

i know i fell into this a few times. but its pretty sad that it happens. i often wonder what happens to these folks that get so wrapped up into themselves, they often forget the world they're in. only when they need something from u, is when they give u the time of day. and after that is done, they jump back into their own little world. i know so many people like this. i may be biased because im always the social butterfly, but jeez. wave hi. introduce yourself. take an initiative for once. these students are your potential rivals, competitors, coworkers, and possibly the ones that can make or break the decision of you getting that job or not.

the same fucks who ignored me, laughed at me, or chuckled at my work, are the same ones asking me if my company is hiring or if i know anyone who needs a 0 xp college grad. networking doesnt seem so bad at that point now doesnt it?

look at me rant. i just did a huge brain dump. i dont feel like reading this over, but i hope it does make sense.

keep in touch with your folks, make new friends, and network.